well latly i have found i have to much time on my hands and with that time i just think...my days have seemed to become longer and harder to face everyday.yeh im not gunna try to avoid talking about it but its something that hurts me even to think about it..over the last couple hours ive been doing some thinking..my love for you is over. I dont want to get myself into anything worse than it is now and liking you just is something im not putting my self through.Last night i went up to my cousin janes house and a lot of deaths came up in our convorsation..we all started to cry but i think that was the best part just so i could let everything out..i was crying for other reasons and when everyone stopped i found myself still going..it was unstoppable finally i calmed myself down. I walked down to the lake late last night and just sat on this rock and looked out and just tought to myself. When i went back i went right to sleep. todat at skool...well it was gay and the boringest thing ever.When i got home i slept again and just woke up.I have a splitting head ache...i can seem to concentrate so im gunna stop writing Not within arms length Id sever the stars from the sky and place them in your hands if I thought another wish theyd see the light of day but you stand beyond the sun Beyond the reach of just a friend maybe if i grew wings maybe if you lost yours these words would flow like water if youd let them scrape your heart Not with in arms length embedded within my concise effort a silent cry I receive no comfort and as I collapse we remain nothing more than friends As I hold my breath a throat full of cement Im disgusted by repetition I accept this curse of friendship your friend friendship