today i had a half day and i took the bus home casue i was just to lazy to walk. i got home and i tried to concientrate on doing my schol work but got bored with it and just zoned off and then passed out on my couch...merci called me and woke me up and asked me what time i was goign up there witch would be in an hour ( when my dad got home) i slapt for 4 hours and it was such a relief i really neeeded it. All myteacher today were over reacting so much and it drove me up the wall and got me very pissed off and makes me mad.Latly i feel i have been the third weel and its pissing me off..everyone is telling me how good their life is goign and how they are soo happy then i lok at my self and i find it pathetic i dont try at anything witch is good enough for me but sometimes it feel unworthey and i dont try casue i dont have full confiedence in myself witch came someimes suck..anyways i went to merci s and i say on the couch and dint move for 6 hours...dan came over and we watched a movie and told eachther what we did all weekend. then merci momgave me and dan a rie home and now here i am siting here writing to you tammy IMed me and shes just non stop talks abotu teddy and it makes me madd..i mean i really dont need to know that she went over there i makes me madd casue i just find it stupid and liek no all of a sudden he plays this big wroll in her life and at times it seems hes her first prioritie and it hurts casue i knwo when she says she owud choose her firneds over him i know she deosnt mean it and liek i feel boys is all she cares abotu i mena tammys not a bad person not at all but sometimes her actions make me think..i have been talking to brian latly and hes just such a cool guy and me and him relate alot and he just always gets the point and understand what im talkign about. I can tell him anything..latly hes been helping me alot wiht this tammy situation and giving me advice about it and i thihnk in a way its helping me get it off my mind and just the fact he will listen and talk about it with me. well im gunna continue my convo wiht him buhbye