I went to the movies tonight and saw the grudge. It was actully pretty good...merci liek closed her eyes the whole time and hillary was always screaming casue she was scared and i was sitting there going shes a stupid bitch why doesnt she just walk out of that house or is she dumb why didnt she bring a base ball bat to protect herslef> they thought it was pretty amusing. At one point i thought hillary was gunna jump into my lap. I feel so bad for her :( shes really confuzed abvout her and dewey and doesnt know what to do and she feels like she is the only one trying and i just feel really bad. She started crying and all i could do was hold her and tell her everything would be okay in the end. Wiping her tears was the worst feeling in the world. i would take her pain in a heart beat if I could. Maybe casue i know how it feels and no one should ever be put thew that kind of bullshit. In a result her medication hasnt been working and she has cut herself again. I took one look at her wrists and i gave her a look liek i was completely dicusted with inside i truly was. I talked to her about it and she told me she just doesnt know what else she could do. I didnt give her a lot of shit about it casue i know how it sometimes can be the last resort. I just hope soon she finds happiness and everything turns out okay for her.Im so tired i got home tonight at like 11 and listened to my dad bitch but he was totally unaware i maybe herd two words he said casue i have the capability to block shit out when it doesnt want to be herd. I swear he can find anything wrong and bring it up. He said im most likly to end up like my sisters witch will never happen i dont plan on getting additced to herion and having a kid at 16< sorry its just not me. I have proved to him over and over again I am better than that but its neevr enough i guess. I just love how both my parents say i will end up liek them so i plan to prove this sterotype wrong. Speaking of my mom she has neglected to call me or stoip by my house. And when i call her, her cell fone is turned off and she deosnt seem to want to answer her home fone?....weird. well im wicked tired and of course i have a hige test tomarrow and i dont even knwo whats its on besdies the fact its in brogens class and oh man i would love to shoot that guy with a bow and arrow