i have desided im gunna quit smoking. i went with my mom tonight it went well and we talked a lot abotu how ive been feeling latly and whats been goign on in my life. My mom wants me to go talk to her doctor becasue she thinkks i have PTS. i probly do casue mt dad has it and so does my mom so i wouldnt be surpirzed..last night i cried myself to sleep. I stayed up till 4 in the mornign writing in my diary ...( my other one) I just had alot on my mind and it just felt like the only thing i could do. I thoguht a lot about how i used to feel and how in a way i still feel the same