yeh so yesturday i asked alexa and tammy if they would come up to the sand hill wiht me and they said they woud. the plan was just for ll of us to go up there and clear our heads..ten minutes after we had been sittin up there tedd and nick showed up on the dirt bike ad the three wheeler. I got mad casue i mena i wanted to o up there casue i knew they wernt gunna be up there. Then i got vene more mad casue tammy started walking hoem and didnt even ask me if i wanted to leave. then we walked to tammys and i smoked three butts wiht her brother and then we walked to alexas and then teddy and nick rie down to petes and we say them ont he way up there . They rode up tto petes to see if they coudl get beer ( even tho i didnt care casu ei wasnt drinking)pete wasnt hoem and then teddy told up to go up to his hosue and we did. we started talking baotu somethign funny we had seen and it pissed teddt off but w/e. me tamy and alexa went on a walk and retured and everythgin was ok. Then around 10:45 e walked to petes and nick and lanky went and got beer and we walked to tammys...tammya nd tedyd did shit wiht me and alexa right there and i find it disrespectful and unnessary. it just bothers me casue personally i dont wnat to see that. but when i tell tammy its like she doesnt even care.its that bothers me more than her an dhim doing shit infront of me. when we came home last night i sat infront of the computer for an hour waitin for this site to work. A lot was going threw my head..liek about how i need to see megan and merci..and how things have changed soo much. and it just bothers me so bad...i miss hillary and just being home. I havent been home for a week and i feel bad for my dad casue hes just home by himself..anyways today i have to go to my aunts and then later i guess were hanging otu wiht teddy and nick and they are gunna drink again...all they do is drink and personally i have quite. i dont even care it brings out parts of me i dont even want to see myself.dumb is all i have to say.