this morninG started out with a fight between me and my dad wether or not i would be going to school.I have like an eye infection and i broke the nuckel in my hand but he wont take me to the hospital casue they cant do anythign for it. we ended up screaming at echother in front of megan..this time when i yelled at him i told him my opinion of him and how i wish he was dead.I kinda felt really bad after.were not talking at all right now well if we do its just a simple "yes" or "no" or "get the hell away from me" or "dont fucking talk to me" and like he thinks im not doing my homework cause i left my book at hoem for LA and told him i wasnt gunna read it and he just asked me abotu it.."hows that booking comming your not reading" i said fuck you to him..but like i really am reading it.he wants to know why i dont talk to him and liek he said he can be prick if he wants and he wants me to tel him all my feelings and like how he says he doesnt have a life and hsit beacsue hes always making money for me to go out and spend even tho i like havent asked him for money for leik months casue i have had some but w/e.yeh and its worse cause like im constantly on the computer in the living room and hes always watching tv so its hard avoiding him and trying not to yell at him.....in homeroom i usally talk to everyone and like when i walked in i just sat down and my eyes got all watery and i didnt know what to do..i finally blinked them away and just sat there and didnt say anything i think everyone knew somehting was up with me cause anthony was asking me if i was alrgiht and i wouldnt talk to him..as the day went on i got more talkitive the first 2 hours of school were the worst...and i got some bad news after studie hall...i just sat in study hall in a room full of people i have never felt so out of place as i did at that moment.Ive never been around that many people who dont understand me it isnt the first time i have felt liek this its just i get this feeling alot more now. Mr.Dugas (teacher) took me out of class and informed me her neice had talked to my brother last night and i guess he is shippin gout to IRAQ in the next couple days. She told me she was proud of him becasue he earned a medal yesturday in his first battle....thank god hes ok i dont knwo what i would do if something had happened to him.she told me that shw would be thinking of him and for me to keep my head up and she said that it wasnt cool to be sending all these young kids to iraq..witch i think is trueiv started crying and she calmed me down after that i dodnt talk for like an hour but eventully the out-going side of me came out.i wouldnt be surprized if all my friends arnt mad at me by the end of the week. Ive been ripping on all of them (PMS) I apoligized and they said it was ok...but anyways i will try to right later i have to finish buring a cd XxtoriaxX