well today was ok but durning the end of the day things went down hill....in S.S we got in the talk of Iraq and all that stuff and the techer said the ppl who are already over there are gunna stay a long time..i kinda got upset and my eyes got all teary and she was saying how all kinds of trops are going to afrganistan and hati and iraq..i find it kinda hard that my brother has been there for in all those countries in the past couple months..man if i had one min to say what i wanted to out fucked up president things would be different...peace would make everything better...i got in a puddle fihgt wiht deven we ending up kicking water at eachother she got mad casue she wa smore wet than me and made a big deal once again i feel im being bitchy to firneds...so i take it shes mad at me along with all of my other firneds..she made a sly remark when she got out of the car..w/e i feel liek im loosing everything ...liek i fele liek dan andbritta and kim and megan are my only firneds..me and merci still kinda have a ocncflict together witch i tol her we ovisly need to talk abotu cause i feel kinda weird about it.I know i have messed up and said somethign maybe i should of kept to myself and i regret it really i do..i knwo things are in between us that i cant fix....and it seems liek now its merci and megan..and im no longer in the picture and it hurts..its hurts relaly bad..it hurts alot more than i can say...im finding it hard to deal wiht and all i resort to is crying liek when i stop things will get better or thinsg will have a better outlok and maybe cryign will make things better for a while..i just dont knwo what to do