well this weekend had its negitives and positives. Today i go in a fight with my dad over weather or not i was where i said i was..witch i was telling the truth.I broke down and took it out farther than it had to go. I sceamed as loud as i could at my dad and maybe said soemthings i shoudnt have said and soem didnt even make sense or have anything to do wiht the subject i was screaming about....i feel really bad cause i broke down infront of megan and let her see and listen to the shit i said....finnaly i just ran in my room and turned the musuc up i coudl hear the murmurs of his voice but my cries blocked them out.10 mins afer i was kinda cooled down i went to go throw my stuff in the washer and dryer he said one word to me and i went mental and i didnt feel like myself but after the affect felt so good. I had finnaly got the shit otu of my mind. I guess i have realized i have one day a month when i just cry all day. i think its like my emotions day where like all the emotions i have held in are let out and like i can cry for hours and laugh like it was nothing. I find myself weird and unable to explain myself to other people.so my ddads says im grounded but i knwo hes gunna pull the giult trip thing an dliek treat me all nice and shit. Hye but whats knew..well i feel like i cant acheive my goals becau eliek i had one oto stop doing drungs and it hasnt even been a week and ive done it twice..I dont have any confidence in myself its just i give into those temptaions i mean when ever i see drugs its like need them or i cant go on.....i dont know what to do