I dont really know anymore.. yeh sad but true. i went to my moms today and walked on the beach..it felt realy good to just sit in the sand and just relax. Im actully thinking abotu couciling only becasue i am getting rather stressed latly and i dont know why. and i mean the littlest things have been bothering me. And i want to be able to tell someone becasue half the time i cant write it on here. I dont really knwo what i want for my self and i find my self caring less and less abotu veerythign and just the fact i dont want to even be here anymore for that fact i have nothign to look forward to. and i hate to trun to smokign pot to get away from everything. i want to smoke for fun and just have a good time not fo a false happiness and i hate not being able to go a day with out feeling down in any way. I hate havign to hold back my tears in school and just the fact a lot of i never thinkg really positive about anything anymore. i just dont know what do anymore i used to be able to have the worst days and easly turn them around and make the best of shit and not let things btoher me as much. but liek i always find something wrong with everything