yeh so didnt go to school today i told my dad i had a migrane right behind my eyes and i was disy. im really fine i just wasnt in the mood to be around so many ppl. i dont know whats been wrong wiht me latly but i only really want to be around my close friends. my mom seems very happy with her life and shit like that. shes gettign way to over excited about the holidays...somethign i really dont like. I mean with my brother being gone in iraq this would be the first time with out him there. Im just not ready for that change. and i dont think anyone underdstands that i dont want christmas to come. im really nervous about my brother right now. i carry his picture wiht me everywhere. and each time i look at it i start crying i just want him to be okay. i dont even want to imagine what my mom is going threw. im starting to get angry wiht everyone i dont kno why and i hope they dont take it personal. just latly i dont knwo what going on wiht me.....i just need some time to my self i guess?