well im hoping this week will go by fast. I have insane plans for the weekend and april vacation...wendsya i have to go to this job thing and thursday i have a half day and fridy i dont have school and im goign to megans skool at like 2:30 and then getting ready for poison the well concert! then saturday hangign otu with britta dan and kim! im so excited... i talked to mariah on the fone and i got some good advice form her about my situations in life an di helped her out to and made her realize some stuff. it was good to let some of my feelings out and know she understands what im trying to point out i feel im have begun to fight with alot of my close friends and im not finding it comferting..each and every day i find myself feeling farther away from reality and friends. I find my self asking that same old question "why?" Most of the time i predend im some where else in a place that will never exsist.i just want things to be better and like when i wake up i want to have a reson to wake up in the morning i want something to look forward to everyday knowing if the worst thing happenes in a little while it will be over and that some one cares ....i want to be recignized for who i am and not who they want me to be....i want to be liked the way i am..i dont want ppl to see my weaknesses i want them to know and respect my strenghths i want to never have any regrets and just be able to smile and not have anything else on my mind...i wnat something better that what i have