well yesturday nick and noah came over megans..i hadnt seen them in so long i was soo happy..nick was really sad you oculs tell there was somehtign wrong cause usally he liek talks and shit..he kept goign off my himslef..i looked at his arms and found out he cut again ....merci was happy i don think but there all set now...like an hour after thye left me and megan were out side skate boarding and we came in for a sec and we got this disturbing call from nick ....he hadcut again...we went downt heer as fast as we could casue he said he was light headed and shit..when we go there we all sat down and asked him what was wrong and we has a nice talk..i htink he felt better after to get what was bothering off his chest..then me and megan went home..and i passed out around 12.. well today was not very interesting..merci mom came and got me at megans while mean went to kivens....we got back to mercis house and dewey had called asking us to go up there so we did an we chilled for a while. Me and merci took some sleeping pills and we passed out right when we got home i was out for 4 hours and merci was out for like 2...when i finaly got the strength to get upi felt liek i was dying and liek i was gunna puke thank god i didnt...then we went back up tp deweys again for liek a half hour ..the walk up there made me feel soo much better..i think i just needed air.... i think im gunna go to slep cause it sounds soo good right now peace out