anniversary

by stereotyped
Listening to: Evanescence - Lies
Feeling: resentful
i cant believe its almost been a year since i found out about everything this time last yr i had no idea about the kindv stuf im goin thru now/hav bin thru i nu nothing about her (u no hu u r, thought i'd not mention ur name incase u dnt want me 2) bob wasnt rly my frend id never rly think about depression or anything like that i didnt even no siy existed how could i hav bin so stupid not 2 expect summat like this? my life was so bloody easy. its freaky how one night can make such a difference, 2 everything wel im gna stop thinking now its bad 4 me xHUGx
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im sorry i screwed up your life
making it harder for someone is a bad thing.
i hate what ive done, to you and to everybody else.
you were happy before, i just made things awkward for you.
im a bad friend and you know it.
i blame me.
i hate knowing that ive made you upset. i dont like asking for help.. it makes me feel like im asking too much from someone and just getting in the way. from now on im gonna be more independant. i have to sort myself out... asking other people just wont work an dmakes me feel even worse.
friends dont usually wreck each others lives. i wrecked yours therefore im a bad friend.
to help? i dont think there is anything you can do. except maybe give me alot of money and keep your mouth shut about where i am. but thats not going to happen. oh, an dyou could murder mrs howland while your at it. come to think of it, you could murder my parents. or murder me. that would help most i think.
well i told you there was nothing you could do.

i just cant stand it atm. i hate everything ive become and i need to start again. i need to be somewehere where NOBODY knows me.. i can re-invent myself and leave my past behind me.

or maybe id like to go somewhere where nobody knew me and keep it that way.
im not going anywhere. it just wouldnt be possible.
its just something i want to do.
I hope you're Ok. Can't wait to come over and see your room.