Yes, I am beyond cool. Sitting in the computer rooms at school, yet again, and i have gone on raz's myspace just to listen to this song. I may as well just loser sign myself really. This week has been shaping up better than i thought it would. Firstly i thought i was going to get bollocked in tech, and i didnt, in fact she rather loves me, cos i'm making a pants-shaped box... And i havent got killed for anything else either. But theres always time i suppose. Yeah the song's finished now. I think i may wait a little while before i put it on again. Just to try and reboost my coolness. Hah, like that could work. I'm really tired at the moment. Realising that i cant survive on anything lass than about 12 hours sleep. But i can rarely get 12 hours sleep, cos i always wake up so stupidly early, and not even deliberately. Also, i'm just a but generally nervous. I'm not really sure why. I guess the whole 10 days til baptism etc is kinda taking its effect. I've written my sermon/talk. But now i need to write the rest of my testimony. And generally just make sure everything is going to go right. I keep thinking its this really long way off and ive got loads of time, but its not. It's bloody close and i dont think i'm ready for that. Heh. I cant to maths. In terms of all the teenage crap which i'm sure you've come to expect from this diary. Things are just a bit annoying. me and Fergy are ok i guess. 'Friends' and all that. But theres something wrong which i cant quite put my finger on. I think until i tell him that i'm completely over him, he's still not gonna treat me the same as he treats other people. After the cinema issue, we dont talk anywhere near as mucha s we did for a while, which, i'l admit, its a little sad. But i'l get over it i'm sure. Forcing myself not to feel anything and just get on with life seems to have frankly not worked at all in the past. But there's a first for everything i suppose. Turns out i'm going to the brentwood fireworks with ally and sam chapman. Should be a giggle. Heh, i remember the last time i was writing about the fireworks. I think i may go back and read my entry from exactly this time last year. Thats always fun for some reason. Oh crap, i should get to chemistry...