Ooh, how cool, ive been here on sitdiary for over a year. Happy anniversary me. The immensely observant of you may have noticed some minute changes to le diary recentement, i dont really know why i made them, but i thought it was time for a change a year is a long time, summat a bit prettier, and i have an odd obsession with lilys atm. I hope y'all can see the font, its quite cool. It's so annoying when friends make bad decisions that you really cant do anything about, cos if you did it would blatantly insult them and other friends. And also because it really isnt the kind of decision you should think badly of, and if you really think about it you are just being selfish and then making excuses for it. And then you cant even explain yourself on your own diary without making it a private entry, just incase the person decides to come on and read it. I wrote a really long entry yesterday, then my computer effed up and i lost it all. i dont even remember what it was all about. oh well. Argument with parents is getting towards being forgotten. with dad it's as if it never happened, but my mum and i still arent actually talking. and i dont plan on being the one to start a conversation. it's thursday tomorrow. thats good. ah shyte, i have swimming, oh i can't be bothered. but it's last thing, so that makes it a little better. ooh, there was great drama today at school. Dr Palmer getting in a little stressy over his flags. bless him. But if we are the body Why arent his arms reaching? Why arent his hands healing? Why arent his words teaching? And if we are the body Why arent his feet going? Why is his love not showing them there is a way?' I should be a better christian. How can i consider baptism when i'm still such a muck up. I know the idea isnt to be perfect, but i should at least be at a stage where i can try. And i know i could, i just don't bother. give me strength But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me Reminding me of all the times i've tried before and failed. The waves they keep on telling me Time and time again "Boy you'll never win, You'll never win." But the voice of truth tells me a different story The voice of truth says "do not be afraid" And the voice of truth says "This is for my glory" Out of all the voices calling out to me I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth. Isn't it weird that that song came on the CD player, just as i was writing the previous paragraph. Well this entry has ended up being very very long. Hope everyone has a good week. xHUGx