I saw sam twice this weekend. i went bowling with him and t random youth group we went 2. that was really good. then when i got home, we were texting eachother. i decided 2 be brave and just start the conversation i felt we should have at some point. i just asked him why he didnt want a girlfriend. his ansewr was they cost money, they expect too much, and theres no point. i didnt agree, but i gues i kind of understand. then he askd me why i wanted 2 no, i basicly told him that i really like him, n its been hard liking him so much n him not wanting a gilfriend, i just thought knowing why would make things easier. he said thanks, and said he would honestly go out with me over anyone else, and he'd probably want a gf after xmas, or maybe sooner. its a long way away. i guess i should be happy. and i am. and i'm so so grateful for sam. but thers still nothing certain. and even if we do end up going out, i'm always gonna be scared he still doesnt really want to go out with me. ah well, i suppose now have some sort of timescale. i know about how long im gna hav 2 wait befor i'm as happy as i know he can make me. and at least now i know he likes me. i just hope christmas comes quicker than thursday ever does...