Shame

I'm sorry. I'm sorry God. I'm sorry i did it. I'm sorry i allowed it to tempt me. I'm sorry i havent thrown it away. I'm sorry i didnt stop when i should have done. I'm sorry i enjoyed it. I'm sorry thats the only reason i did it. I'm sorry i cant make a commitment. I'm sorry i cant stick to it. I'm sorry i'm not crying. I'm sorry i don't hate myself. I'm sorry i can see myself doing it again. I'm sorry i'm so worthless. I'm sorry i couldnt be better than anyone else. I'm sorry i said i wouldnt. I'm sorry it didnt hurt. I'm sorry that it did. I'm sorry they'll all see it. I'm sorry i didn't need it. I'm sorry i'm not hiding it. I'm sorry i'm so fucking stupid. I'm sorry i swear too much. I'm sorry i dont care enough. I'm sorry i'm such a fuck up. I'm sorry i can't even listen to my own head. I'm sorry i waited until now to fuck up. I'm sorry i thought it was ok to fuck up. I'm sorry i still want it. I'm sorry i cant curl up and die. I'm sorry i'm not sorry enough.
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hey susie sweetie, hope you are ok. love ya lots. ami xx
p.s. can't wait for the party!! although i'm still searching for a cape!! aaaah!
Sorry is a strange word.