I'm so relaxed right now. I think it takes a few weeks of insane amounts of stress to make you really appreciate what life is like without it. Like I've said, the last couple of weeks were pretty hellish. I dont think there was a single night when didnt end up in tears just stressed out about the whole thing. especially the last couple of days. And, even though i did really enjoy the whole day, i am bloody happy it's over. The baptism was as good as it could have been. Managed to put the whole stupid father issue aside, mostly thanks to our wonderful steve. i really dont know what i'd do without that guy. And the evening was great. Granted i was pissing myself. But it was all so worth it. The feeling of doing is something 'out there', doing something for God, and clearly making a difference to the church is a feeling i dont wanna let go of just yet. So yeah we crapped up occasionally, but that isnt even remotely important, cos we did it, and we did it well. And i'm so unbelieveably proud of all of us. Mocks are a joke. Theyve gone so well so far, i'm starting to see the point even less. Anyway, i have some small girls to attend to. No i am not a paedophile.