Well first-time-seeing-sam-after-he-turned-me-down-forever was pretty horrible. first of all he just acted like nothing had happened, and was being really sweet and just generally the amazing person that he is and it just made me wonder how i could ever have thought i was getting over him. Then he had to start the conversation him: 'so what about what we talked about?' me: 'what do you think' him: 'you happy just being friends?' and i had to pretend i was. I nodded and tried to smile. But i couldnt. I did just about stop myself from crying then and there though. But i was in a good mood, n he just went and reminded me of everything. getting over him had meant keeping him out of my mind, forgetting about it all, distracting myself with other things, other people. well he fucked that up didnt he. And then he went back to acting like nothing had happened. Although i must say, i didnt speak to him after that, i just ran away, tried to avoid him. All he could say was 'oh well' and 'life goes on' and 'youll get over it' Well i'm bloody trying.