you know not all things suck in your life It's just cuz you make them suck. gahh... I can't be who I want to be...and what is holding me back. If I break up with landen he'll probably kill himself. and If don't then, then I'll never be doing what the prophet is asking me to do. sometimes I pretend that I'm where I want to be. i was doing really well. I'm this girl, with loads of her friends surrounding her. I'm dating a lot, nothing serious thou because I'm not up for the commintment right now. I'm happy, and I'm knowing what I want. muhaha. that pretty daughter of God practicing faith and obdience. I know if I just do what I should things should turn...will turn out fine. *remebers* Today started out wowly. i woke up...by a phone call. attempted to put on my bathrobe...everyone laughed at me. I think the sleeve was hanging off in the back. whatever. muah. my cousin asking if I called earlier that day. ohmygoodness! like I really call anyone at 8:30 on a saturday. who doyouthink I am!? mmm!! so i went back to sleep till around 11:30. I was still wondering when dallan would call me. heh! I did personaltime for a while then went upstairs. the doorbell rang, it was dallan. I was yelling and brother to answer it, but he was yelling back "you're not my mother!!!" what a hoot. so I ran back downstairs to put some clothes on. and...yeah. We went out to lunch. I practiced my spitwadding skills. it was great. the sandwitch was HUGE! mmm meat. we made fun of Devin, then got a pie. came back to my place and at the pie. yay! It was fun. Me and dal talked about some stuff...yeah I really do need to work that out. Josh called and wanted to know if i was coming over. landen called but again I had to go. I had a date and ..yeah...I will be seeing him at josh's "Kaylee! I'm so mentally abused!" I was going to invite...nevermind. me and kayls might do somehting tonight. rah! Last night when I came home sara and derek was here. agian. I complaned and told them to go home because it's my house. I never liked it when other people used my house to cuddle in. "don't you know its only cute when I do it?!" Anyways, I was feeling used and tired so I just ignored them and watched Mash. yay for mash. except the guy looked like Clyde, so It made me sad. when they left i had more personaltime and I was happy to be me! yay! I'm trusting in you, please make it be alright.