yeah yeah! dancing queen! yah! woot woot! look at me! hmmm! It felt so great to be back... sigh, last day of band rehersal. sad day. he said to make it count. we made a triangle! or...a pyramid...sure... with little zack on top! hurrah. and took a picture. people cherred. :) it was a good day...I guess at school. nothing new... band we did concert and wind ensamble. oh. I hate being in concert band. it makes me feel so stupid and bad. and no confidence. because... I think the higher class men (jerk seniors) are looking down on me. so I feel dumb. mmm...I'm going to hate this. i hearing bedont saying "oh...yeah...I really...love this clas...not..." and then he later told me that it annoyed him so bad how we got out there so late with the pit crap. so...I played crappy. the chimes were broken and he was upset. hmm... it was sad. sad day. :) I had to leave early, it was sad, but I'm so glad I did. I rather be at the other place. peace at last. *sigh* I'm so silly. a boy acts like he likes me... oh, sigh, oh. :) because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk... yes but... oh, you will never know how good I feel! I love this. the actuality of it all. its love! LOVE sis marshal said I'd find the right person someday. haha. so I announced to the whole bus/car my !boy! problems. haha, they all said I'm pretty funny. I then asked rach if she ever passed the boy's house she liked. I felt stupid. but...haha. so, matt was behind me and mom today. and I was curious... so I watched to see if he looked at my house. and he DID ...oh, the patheticnes of me...isnt it fun!? no, its not pathetic. its...childish! ha...and we all should be a child at heart. what's with this "oh...we love eachother!?" blaaaagaggaggag. anyways. not my style I guess. I dont see what all this mumble jumble of relationships in highschool is all about. I mean... well, okay...I was like that last year a bit. but...its not really me. anyhoo. me nagging. I just don't think its right. for me. that's all. maybe for you...and you...and so. but not for me. and thats fine. pleasing myself! I love kirsten! I couldnt help but smile. I love this. this sad sad world. i love it! just to know you hear me I smiled at everyone. they smiled back. I could just...feel it. And I thought about faith. how...its real, you must have faith in this world to over come everything. oh, i love it. words can't express. Kirsten, there you are.