haa. Something odd is going on around here. Really odd. I enjoy being here. It's not gloomy. It's not messy. mom wore an apron! yikes, what is this turning into? we ate dinner...at the table...together...at 5! 5:00! we had home made spaghetti-ish. man oh man. not saying we all enjoyed being toghether. buy mum made the try. I hope this stays. I liked it. around 6 I went to my nicely cleaned room (now...tell me what really is going on?) and read about fung Shui. of course the place that poisoned me. haha, fancy that. I read outloud to Chester, my kitty. He seemed to enjoy it. Then I spelt something funny and I looked at his head and it was pussy and bloody and just plain gross! I told him his chi was all thrown off because of his infected head. Then I told him he was throwing off all the positive energy that *could* be circulating in the bedroom. He then licked my arm. I'm trying to balance my life. Then maybe I wouldn't be so hard on my self. I'm scared of relationships like no other. but, who knows...something *good* may come out of it. It did with Landen. hehe. He's such a STUD! and with Dallan, we're gooooood friends now. and...well..yes. Ect. so...maybe I won't freak out next time Malcom looks at me. and maybe I'll hint to the others that no, I actually do not hate them. hmm now spin. lkfhakljshdfakshlHAKJDHFKAJDSHL! ...someone just emailed me... lakjdflkajsdflajsdlfjads "At least outloud I won't say it..."