I didn't realize I haven't written in a long time. I have so much to do, but I needed Kir time. I need to do sheep stuff, see lauren and hope that Malc will at least call me. I take him for granted way too much. He just doesn't know I'd do anything for him. Maybe one day It'll come out. I found out I have to move in on the 8th instead of the 10th. Sad day. The 9th of Septemeber it will be a year. A year! Lets see if it can last longer than that. Maybe on day I'll know and put into words what I have learned. he said, "well Kirsten, It's been fun." who knew... It was like there was something I didn't even know. Something I couldn't control, and it worked out beautifully. Absolutly Brilliant. It's a sad sad day...The day I find that I don't know myself at all. Here I come! Anyways... this week was a bummer, but I caught up with Kaylee for a while! That was good, really good! And Lauren came home, too. I'll see her, too. I really just...want to sit and talk. Take off my shoes. I'll smile. I have to lead in sacrament again tomorrow. The poor poor orginist! He just smiles and looks away. I'll let him lead. But, tomorrow is Sunday! A day of rest. The sit-down-and-breathe day. Sigh, I have the rest of the night. I really want to see him. I have fallen to that level. Is it a crime? Ha, doesn't matter. I'll get it all done. Somehow. I'm leaving soon! I'm getting out! I'm...going! Oh, I worked today. What a great way to start the day. HA! But mostly I just cleaned. I much rather clean then help customers. dumbledore said something like...it doesn't matter if it's in your head, as long as it's real to you. I always thought he was smart!