It was an interesting day. Called Scott. Apparently they don't *need* me anymore at work. man oh man. I was going to start up skating and piano. I won't even have the money to pay clark for drum lessons. Hopefully he'll allow just once a month lessons. It's all I can afford. man oh man. I don't even know why I want to be on line anyways. Everyone else who makes it turn into egomaniacs. grr. I'll be stuck in special ed band and pit. I quit. I know I know, I'm just being bitter and unkind to myself. man oh man. I'm just wasting my time here. Nonetheless it was a pretty good day. Me and Em went to jamba juice and walmart. I had them put in an immunity booster. I need to get healthy * as I munch my potatoe chips* It was good to be with her, I love her so. We came home and made food and watched a movie. I'm so glad our school doesn't have too bad of a clique problem. Maybe PDA and stupid people problem but nothing moree. or maybe I"m naive. hmm. Me and lauren ate fonduish stuff and did our homework. I love her. the real her. I think she's back to life now. We realized in a nonverbal way that we're both different people. Different people with different views and opinions. I love her because she's different. WE still do agree on the ideal man. Missionary with his white sleeves rolled to his elbows. hmm. a girl can dream. which reminds me, Aaron is leaveing soon! our wedding date is August 8, 2008. FYI. hmm, first time a guy planned the marriage before I did. but, he did let me try on his ring... I need to go to bed. WE kind of had family home evening tonight. I got at mom badly. I'm sorry. I told her it was my job to encourage family home evening. it was heres to actually make it take place. IT's like I want so much to be perfect sometimes that I don't take joy in the journey of becoming what I really can. "you'll be traveling the road between who you think you are and who you can be. The key is to allow yourself to make the journey..." Night. I hope I get a new job. I need to pay bedont. hmm. I love that my parents allow me so much to be independent that I pay for everything. and yet...They won't let me get a licience. hammmmm... Life is beautiful. I miss kace. hmm. Drink water.