hmm, I felt peaceful today. Kacean left my today for Arizona, I will miss her happieness oh so much. mmm, I miss her already. it was a good day. been a good week. good life. It's a charmed life! well acutally yestorday sucked, but the best part about something sucking is the great things that follow. Hey we don't go through adversity for nothing, learn to grow. mmm. I went on a walk with kaylee. I love that we can talk. Basically I told her how I felt, because I just wanted to know why and whats for a lot of stuff. I was scared. I think that's the best part, we're more like family. I wish we all could be more like family on the line. haha, Jake would be the jerky older brother that I try to be nice to. or...well...he's more like Edward. I'll be lucy. hmm...haha, the reality of it all makes me jolly. He yelled at me yestorday. wailed on me. I started to cry, I'm a baby. An over sensitive baby (lets just say it's okay) I tried to apologize to him ( at least for what I did.) and he didn't except. I feel bad, but I can't really control how he feels and thinks. jerk. I try to get throug to him. I love the line...bless their hearts. and you know what, this too will pass. "do I wanna throw away the key and invent a whole new me? I tell my self, no one no one. Don't wanna be no one but me." simplicity is my best friend. It's amazing how much love there is. Today was an assembly. hmm. me and Malcolm sat by eachother. We're so goofy together. I can be me most of the time. Oh, he makes me feel so good. like, it's okay to be the geeky girl. He chooses to be with me in public. Even when I wear dorky clothes and chuck taylors. sometimes in the hall he'll put his arm around me when he says hello. why is it that people can share their deepest emotions with people they don't even know? I judge myself too harshly. It was good today. Went to kaylee's house and she gave me medicine. :) I feel better now. After watching tv we went to lee's and she bought me ice cream! yay! alright, it's time for young womens. toots. why won't they leave me alone?