wow, I haven't updated in so long! bah hah! I'm in Arizona now! and I never want to go home! The ride sucked...I was supposed to make a bunch of hats...gah. But, I read that stupid book instead. Go ask Alice. It makes me scared that I'll get messed up in that junk. yikes. Grandma's house was a blast. She is so hilarious. I really can tell where I got my spunk from. also my plump lips... I've never seen so many pictures of me in one place. I found a picture of me running over a cat...and my hair is taking over the world...sometimes I miss my curls. It's so hot here, it feels like Paradise...but I haven't been there for ages. Amy and Todd's place is great. the moment we got here Amy dumped bags of clothes on me! yessss! Mason's sister left me all her "immodest" clothes since she's going through the temple soon. yesyesyes! this past week has been interesting. Last friday I told Malcolm I liked him too. hmmm! he gave me a big hug. Then saturday was the dance and I had a blast with everyone. I got to dance with Peter. I love boys who can dance! we kept on spinning me and twirling me. He took charge and I loved it. Dancing is definetly one thing Malcolm isn't good at. But, I bet you anything if I told him that he'd become amazing over night since he has to be "perfect at everything!" so He says. Tuesday I went to the doctor and he fixed my toe. I loved him, and I love Mike more from it. Ahh...someday he'll ask me out. my toe feels sooo much better and it's healing so fast. Kam can really call me his handicap friend now. Kaylee left us in the band room after the surgery. Kam was worried about Kaylee. We spent the whole time in silence almost. I played the piano and he drew a picture of me and kaylee hitting eachother with out basses. (yay for bass! I'm so excited to play it!) The concert was that night too. It was pretty okay. Me and malcolm and taylor and julie had a breath holding contest. I lost when I saw Taylor's face. I saw malcolm watch me on the stage for a bit. I was trying to be really quiet and just think. It was the first real concert without Bedont. It sucked. I cried on stage and I didn't care who saw. dang it I hate this! he'll probably be gone by the time I come home. "tonight I want to cry." when the concert band was done I found kaylee and malcolm sitting together. mmm... I dunnno... He told me I should sit down because of my foot. he's a stud. He tries to do things for me...but...gah! No wonder people don't like me for a long time. I'm so terrified of relationships. I just don't want to be hurt again. but, hey me and landen are best friends from it. But, surely it's not worth the...oh nevermind. gah! mum met him that night. they shook hands. what is this kid thinking? Go for someone normal! gah...well soon he'll find he loves my best friend more...or when summer comes he'll realize that he's definetly not into me...does he find my independent spunk appealing? he left soon after and mum left me with Thomas. By then I was an emotional mess. Thomas took me on the stairs by the stage and just let me lay in his lap while he rubbed my back. He said it totaly sucked being there. then he handed me over to Kaylee and went home. um... Wednesday was interesting! Lauren was on one all day! we moped around all day... then saying goodbye to everyone...oh goodness! I'm gone for a week and I flip out. Malcolm hugged me and said he'd miss me. I told him I'd miss him too "baby!" Then 5 minutes later he came back. haha. I never said goodbye to kaylee...I saw her on the field but I found Kam out there and decided I'd call her later. hmm!! Bree gave me a ride home. When we got there we found mum trying to hang her wet shirts (and other suck interesting articles of clothing) on the basketball hoop. I haven't laughed like that in soooo long! it still hurts! mum was flipping out and I told aubree I needed a man like her because half the time she's the only one understanding my "white trash" family. we're nuts. We really aren't that white trash compared to this place...but it's still fun to play. now...to find a man that loves my family that much to stay with me...this will be fun. but, I have plenty of time to find one. I'm in NO hurry. that reminds me...haha. On the way here 15 for a moment by five for fighting came on. Malcolm plays that song all the time. wow...he really is amazing. ahh. I missed him for a moment. then I really listened to the song. goodness I'm only 17 for 6 more months! ahahahahahah! I love being young. I never want to get old and boring. Old people seem so rushed and impatient. mum yells all the time and she never has time for herself to have fun. *shivers* anyhoo...I should be getting dressed...we're going to the Easter Pageant today! yay! and hopefully we'll fit in some shopping on the way. I love holidays.