BORED. BORING. SUMMER IS AWFUL. NEED TO GET DRUNK. need something interesting to do.... i still haven't fallen out of insomnia, in fact i've been taking like 6 pills a day... 2 to make me drowsy and fall alseep, and then an assload of painkillers next day for the headache. this is really fucking stupid, but oh well, since no one really reads this thing. HOW MANY PPL HERE ARE CUTTERS? i hate it when people just say it like that, its like "oh hi, I'm a writer and a cutter". that's great for you. I used to cut myself, but that is a stupid lable to give yourself. HOW OLD ARE YOU? 14 HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN CUTTING? I can't remember. Some time in 7th grade with scissors, but i didn't know what it was at the time so i didn't pay attention to it. WHY DO YOU DO IT? it's sort of satisfying just konwing you can do it DO YOU WANT TO STOP? no, i didn't DO YOU FEEL AS ALONE AS ME? not really WHATS THE LONGEST YOUVE GONE WITHOUT CUTTING? 3 weeks WHAT DO YOU DO TO KEEP YOURSELF FROM CUTTING? I drink, but I don't really feel the need to stop myself. There's nothing wrong with it. HOW DID YOU FIRST FIND OUT ABOUT CUTTING? wtf? cutting isn't some sort of day spa you find only through word-of-mouth. I hate it when people put it like that, it sounds like a fucking trend. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST TIME LIKE? messy, slow, and it got infected. WHY DID YOU DO IT? I wanted to see if i could. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD TAKE IT BACK? only because they scarred badly DO PPL KNOW? some DO PPL CALL YOU NAMES BECAUSE OF IT? yeah, cutter obviously. ARE YOU ALWAYS IN PAIN? you are such a fucking drama addict, whoever made this email. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL? no, the only reason people get sent to mental hospitals is because they told someone, showed someone, or weren't careful enough hiding it. WHAT WAS IT LIKE? .. WHY WERE YOU THERE? gee, lets put two and two together. HAVE YOU EVER TRY TO KILL YOURSELF? this girl named jessica really warped my opinion on suicide, now i think you either have genuine, diagnossed disorders, or you're jsut a histronic drama queen teenager. HOW MANY TIMES? god. what's even worse is the people who can't do it right. HOW? .. WHY? .. DO YOU WANT TO KILL THE PAIN? wtf CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF DEAD IN 5 YEARS? no TEN? more like 15 or so, i'll probably die from cirhossis CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF DOIN THIS FOREVER? no, but for a while ARE YOU COVERED IN SCARS? yeah DO YOU HATE YOUR SCARS? more than anything DO YOU WANT TO DIE? not really DO YOU LIKE THE PAIN? it doesn't really hurt, i used to drink alot when i did it. DO YOU LIKE THE BLOOD? yes DO YOU HATE YOURSELF? doesn't everyone ARE YOU BELIMIC? no, and it's bulimic ARE YOU ANOREXIC? kind of, not really DO YOU HAVE OTHER PROBLEMS? yeah WHAT ARE THEY? i guess you can count drinking, sleeping pill addictions DO YOUR FRIENDS DO IT TOO? one friend cuts, 2 drink DO HATE THEM FOR IT? no. i do hate that jessica girl though. She cuts and then tells everyone, like her life is a fucking bulletin board. it's not really something to be proud of. DID THEY START CUZ YOU DO IT? no, i think jessica did though. CAN YOU HELP ME? what? DO YOU EVEN WANT TO? what do you need? DO YOU EVEN WANT TO TELL ME? tell you what?