...bloh? haha blow. If you have the time, I want you to read each and every one of these and think about what they mean. I wish I weren't afraid of confrontation. I wish I could write beautiful songs. I wish I could break the ice. I wish I knew all the right things to say. I wish I could understand why people do the things they do. I wish I could make someone laugh when they just had their heart torn to bits. I wish I fit in sometimes. I wish I didn't get so caught up in the details that I miss the big picture. I wish people understood me. I wish I could understand myself. I wish I don't just stand on the sidelines and watch things happen. I wish I weren't a wallflower. I wish I didn't look at a friend and wonder what goes on that they don't say. I wish I could swing on a park swingset in the rain. I wish I weren't so fucking indecisive and vague. I wish I weren't such an emotional nutcase. I wish I could make things better. I wish I could stitch up old friendships. I wish I could find the right words. I wish I knew why people hurt each other and are so blind to it. I wish I didn't toss and turn at night wondering how things will turn out. I wish I didn't always try and find the reason for everything. I wish I weren't so sensitive to criticism. I wish I didn't need constant proof and logic for human emotion. I wish I cared, sometimes. I wish I could think of something intelligent to say during that awkward silence. I wish I belonged somewhere. I wish people would smile more often. I wish someone would buy chinese takeout for that homeless man on I-85. I wish I didn't take everything seriously, literally, or personally. I wish I held the door more often. I wish I could remember my broken promises. I wish I were in love. ....I wish I were actually doing this stuff instead of sitting here being emotional about it. thats it. i think i am the only person i know who can spontaneously get upset over absolutely nothing. i am a complete psychopath. i must have cried 4 times today.