Okay, just a quick update 1. every year, the seniors at my school throw an end-of-the-year party in this warehouse after graduation. It's in a pretty bad part of town, and theres a brawl almost every year because kids from other schools go too. This time a couple punks brought metal baseball bats. I don't really know what happened, but one of the seniors got punched unconcious and hit his head on the cement and was out for 5 minutes and he's been in the hospital for 3 days and they're still not letting him out. It's kind of scary to think about, because he wasn't even in the fight, he was trying to stop it. 2. there was another drunk driving accident in alpharetta- 2 kids died, 3 in the hospital, and i knew the little brother of one of the guys that died. i used to go to school with him. it was really weird seeing his big brothers yearbook picture on the news because they looked so alike. His little brother used to be so cocky and arrogant, and he's probably so much different now. Everyone that was questioned said that kid never drank in his life. I don't know why, but these 2 things really make me think a lot. It kind of stresses me out. A lot of bad things happen when they shouldn't, and it's not fair. One mistake shouldn't result in the loss of a life. It just makes me realize that I'm not invincible, and yeah, I could die from all the shit I pull too. 3. went to the doctor because i'm having really bad sleeping problems, and after a lot of questions she concluded very scientifically that the reason i can't sleep is because i'm "sad". so instead of writing me a prescription for some sleep aids she referred me to a fucking psychologist. i don't need fucking therapy, i need to be medicated. thanks.