Reasons why this was my shittiest summer, ever. - My mom's dad died. I had to watch my mom fall apart. - They're taking my dog to a shelter tomorrow morning. I'm never going to see her again; I can barely wrap my head around that fact. - My 'friend' is an idiot who saves her IM conversations, and her mom is a nosy bitch who takes the time to read them all. So yay, I get to expect a call from her mom to my parents today about all the drugs. - School starts tomorrow. - The only boy I hooked up with, or even liked this summer, moved, literally across the continent. - Smoking became a crutch. It used to be a social thing for me. - Oh yeah, did I mention I went down to 88 pounds? - And then I put all that weight back on, which was actually more upsetting. - My mom found my cigarettes. - I'm starting counseling. - And did I mention they're taking my best friend to a shelter tomorrow morning? - Realized my ex is, and always will be, a possessive controlling psychopath. He IMed another one of my guy friends and accused him of trying to get into my pants. Thanks, John. Like I really needed any help in killing my social life. : ) : ) FUCK YOU GOD, WHOEVER THE HELL IS OUT THERE. I think I'm going to go OCD and clean my room some more. For now, it's the only way I know how to bring any sort of order to all the chaos in my life.