Goodness. I haven't written in this for a while, have I? My boyfriend of 7 months and I broke up, but we got back together within a few weeks. I figure, if that was the right choice, it wouldn't have been so damn painful. I don't like imagining him being with other girls after he's been my first everything. It's hard giving up that much of yourself to someone and just to watch the significance deprecate over time. Maybe I am just jealous. I don't know, but I'm not as happy as I thought I would be. I just don't think this is exactly what I want, but on the other hand, I don't know what is. Ahh! In other news, the guy I used to get my alcohol from is dead. He was robbed, shot, and killed.