MMMMRRRRRRRF. IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, MY LIFE HAS TURNED INTO THE FUCKING OC. BEFORE, ANY DRAMA IN MY LIFE WAS DUE TO MY STUPID HISTRONIC GROUP OF FRIENDS. NOW, I ACTUALLY CAUSED THE DRAMA. WTF? WHAT HAVE I BECOME??! AHHH. *drowns self in a vat of crabs* I am a stupid pathetic drama whore. Concert last night. Went with two friends and ended up getting too close and affectionate with one of them. I'm not even really sure how it happened, just all of a sudden I was holding his hand and leaning back on him and he was rubbing my neck and stuff. I mean, just because you do stuff with someone doens't mean that it MEANS something, right?? I mean, you can kiss someone without actually having FEELINGS for them. I don't think he understands that though. Now he wants to "talk" about it, and he just doesn't GET that it WASN'T SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN. RAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWRRR I think I've been leading him on. He's called me a tease a couple times. But what can I do about it? I don't want a relationship. I can't HANDLE a relationship. Refer back a couple entries and you'll see how bad my last one turned out. Is it really that bad to just cuddle or mess around with someone for a night, and then forget about it the next morning? I mean, it doens't have to be a big deal, but he's MAKING it into one. Ugh. Please, comment on this and tell me what to do with my stupid life.