have you ever been in a really fast and dramatic relationship where you think you love him, and he thinks he loves you, but you're both just living lies? and then when you realize that you were never in love, only thought you were, you crash. majorly i ALWAYS think that's whats going on except then i wonder if he really does love me, and i really do love him, and im just in denial because i don't want to get hurt because my life has been full of shitty relationships and parents setting shitty examples of what relationships should be like and i want to give a big FUCK YOU! to all my insecurities, my jealousy, my distrust, all the exes that fucked me over, my lack of ignorance, for never allowing me to just be some naive contented girl with a naive contented boyfriend and finally a big FUCK YOU to myself. fuck you for fucking over everything good that's ever come to you, you with all your paranoia and misanthropy and selfhate, where has it gotten you? are you happy now?