So I have about 20 days until I leave for DU. That is WAY more than everyone else, and I am just about to die from all this time on my hands! I want to just get there, and start doing stuff! I hate the fact that everyone is going to start having all these experiences and I will have to say, "oh that sounds cool..... ill tell what I think when it happens!" Although at the same time, I dont feel like doing school work yet, so Im happy about that. I dont know i feel very mixed about it all. Im sooo excited and yet I get all sad when everyone says that they are so sad that Im leaving, adn they cant believe I am. I cleaned out my whole room and bathroom. It looks empty. Its like I dont even live in it anymore. It looks awesome! But at the same time its really sad because thats like another door im closing on my as im starting to call it my AZ life. Becuase i really dont think i will ever really live here full time again. Watch ill end up here and raise a family, but I just really dont see myself doing that. Im always going to be coming back and stuff, becuase all my family lives here and I do love it here, AZ made me into the person i needed to be, with so many memories I could never just leave and never look back. Im thinking I might live here while I have my plans of traveling hte world wtih my job, and just have a little apartment or something since then I would be around family. I dont know. Things are so crazy right now. My cousin comes tomorrow and we move her into her dorm room at ASU, im sooo scared and excited for her. Shes leaving her boyfriend though and Im not sure how she is going to handle that. Im worried for my friends here, that I wont be able to be there for them as much as I am now, which im sure will happen and is understandable. But im so scared that we will just all change and not get along or something. thats about all im worried about. Im sooooo unbelievably excited to go to DU. I can totally imagine myself there. I fell in LOVE with Denver and Cherry Creek, i just can't wait to get there and be there, adn meet all new people! I am soooo ready for a change. Hopefully I wont be writing how wrong I am about all this, but I really dont htink that I will. Ive always been able to be comfortable and confident enough with myself to adapt to just about every situation and I always as sad as this sounds, thrive when im alone. I dont know what it is, im the happiest when im on my own and my own terms. I feel so free adn like I can handle anything. I really like my roommate which is such a relief. I think we will get along really well. Best friends, I dont know, but close ones im sure of. We seem to be so much alike, which i hope doesnt back fire.... So many changes in such a little amount of time. And so why am wishing it would just all hurry up and get here? Probably becuase im dreading saying good bye to everyone. Ive become so close to people I never even really knew were there in high school over the summer. I am going to miss them all so much, but they give me the hope that i will be fine and that i will be able to meet new people easily! 20 days shouldnt seem long, but it seems like forever. Im running out of things that need to be done. then im just going to be sitting at home, doing nothing and going out of mind! I dont handle time on my hands well, at all! I get to bored!! Its a real problem. Sometimes i get really scared that I wont be able to say good bye to everyone. I know over the next 20 days im goign to cry a lot. but thats me for you Miss Emotional! I wish everyone the very best with their new paths and adventures. I know everyone will go so far. I hope to see you in the future. On a side note, Lake Tahoe was so fun, I had such a relaxing time and really enjoyed spending time with my cousin Kristin. Shes the absolute best person in my life. Shes been there for me in ways no one else could ever understand and has been around since birth so she understands. The stuff she deals with amazes me and only makes me respect her more. Good luck, have fun, and always remember to smile on your new paths to everyone!!! Casey