Feeling: suicidal again It's really my own fault. I shouldn't have put off all of my homework to do... absolutely nothing. I shouldn't have cut myself last week. I shouldn't talk to Joey. I shouldn't be sitting here on the computer all day. I know that something is terribly wrong... I need to take a shower. I need to clean my room. I need to do my make-up work. I need to have a good cry. I need to share. I need to comfort other people. It's all a matter of prioritizing... But I can't. I'm never going to cut again, once was enough... Now I'm crying, finally, thank God. It's so hard to cry nowadays. I can't seem to let it out. I'm so emotionless sometimes, and it makes me feel like a horrible person... And that's all I can feel lately. That and compassion for others. I think I've given up on myself and my life. If you feel the same, please comment and God bless you, good luck in life. If you don't feel like this, thank God, it's terrible. Everyone, I love you. ~ Beth