I feel lonely, sad, in pain, sorrowful, hurt, distressed, alone, worried, sick, tired, hungry, dead, burning searing pain behind the eyes as that of tears or a raging buffalo... I have a stitch in my side and a chip on my shoulder. My best friend today said, "Maybe we're just not friends anymore..." and it really hit me somehow, even though I knew she was just making a terrible joke. She's making out with her boyfriend now, across town from me, while I sit here alone and despairing, everything around me turning to dirt, even my faithful computer not functioning properly... My birthday's coming up next month. I went out to Denny's with Morgan today for breakfast. And yesterday at starbucks. Come to think of it, we've gone out for coffee together the last three consecutive days. I watched Clerks today. What does all this mean? Oh, nothing, it's just a list of reasons I should go on living. All the great things that have happened in my life lately. Without Morgan, there would be none of this. I wonder, does she know how important she is to me? Tripod won't let me upload the music I want to set as a background here. I'm sad. Hey, does anyone know of a good place to upload music files for free? We're all fucked. It helps to remember that. ~ Beth