Shane - I know you don't like me; hell, I agree with your reasons. But keep your mind upen and look for the good side, because I can be a good and loyal friend. - Which reminds me, if you ever hurt Dannie, I will kill you in a very painful way. Not some silly, stupid pain, but something along the lines of bleeding to death through your eyes and testicles. Dannie - Shane is immature. You are immature. I am IMMATURER. :-p But seriously... I used to think he wasn't good enough for you, but maybe he could be if you both grow up a little (which is sure to happen as time goes on). You both can be pretty intelligent and cool at times. - You can't imagine how much I love you. None of the people I really love can. Which is about... oh, say... 5 people, including both friends and family. - Not everyone sucks. Some people can be really good to you, if you open up your mind and heart and let them. Morgan - You are one of the few friends I have that would probably be okay if I killed myself. I don't know why, but it seems that you are the most emotionally stable of my friends, not to mention that you have the most other friends. I'd tell you this but you would probably forget to freak out or get worried, and that might just drive me to get into the situation... - Are we drifting? Because I miss you... Jordan - Yes, you're in here... You're one of the only anti-drug people I know. You've got most of the same "issues" as me, and you are a stronger person. A good influence. We should hang out more. - I read your last email to Morgan. It's really sad and pathetic, you sound almost as whiny as me in this damn thing. It bares your soul, which is pretty cool. But there is so much bitterness, anger, and a bit of vengeance thrown in. I assre you, your anxieties are nothing to worry about. Morgan won't take your memories and give them to someone else. You are not everyone's #2 man. If you go arount believing that, it will never change. Situations do not change, only minds. Jeremy - You are one of the hottest guys I've ever met (hell, he'll never see this so I can be honest) - I like a lot of things about you, and want to get to know you better and all that great stupid junk. Vandalism and drugs are stupid and usually not worth the time. You're not. I find you very much worth the time, regardless of what ends up happening with "us." - Did you hear when Morgan called me your girlfriend? I was about to speak up, but I figured you would if you cared. But you didn't see anything. Morgan is trying to get me to read something into this, but I'm really unsure. ...Yeah. I'd say a lot more to him, because he's awesome, but I don't want to sound obsessed, because I'm not. I'm a CASUAL STALKER, people, not a crazy obsessed one like SOME PEOPLE I know *cough-internetfriends-cough* Grandma - I don't do drugs. I don't to many illegal, or even unkind, things at all. Or many things that you disapprove of. My friends respect this fact and don't pressure me into things. - That said, some rules are asinine. These, I bend. - People are okay, once you get to know them. - I'm a big girl, I can take care of myself around peer pressure. - Oh, and you're insane. You really ARE full of rage, and volatile, and your house is always cold. The whole point of the moving in with Aunt Cathy idea was that it is a more stable environment, and I'll at least know what I'm coming home to, without the insecurity of "What mood will she be in? What am I going to have to do to keep up relations?" anyone else can just fuck off. I'm ranting about IRL stuff right now. Sorry, but that's life. ~ Liz-Beth