All my friends are on drugs and I can't stand it. Don't they see how much they are going to screw themselves up? I try to convince myself that it's not so bad, that they'll be okay. Hell, try it, and maybe it could do me some good. ...But I know that's bullshit. My mom knows it's bullshit. From experience. She drank again last weekend. They put her on a PILL to make her get DEATHLY ILL if she drings, and someone has to make a HOUSECALL to deliver it EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY. This is how HARD my mom has to work at stopping her addiction to alcohol. Then on the weekend, the case-managers are like "here's a couple pills, you're on your own..." OF COURSE SHE'S NOT GOING TO FUCKING TAKE THEM! She fucking parties all weekend long and then has to confess it to me on the phone, crying and begging me never to do any drugs. Hell, she even told me to stay away from caffeine. That's how I know drugs are bad. They fucked my mom over so bad, and then she got pregnant and her brain got fucked even more. She has fucking delusions! This woman thought she was going to marry Jesus. Voices in her head accuse her of being the unapprehended criminal she hears about on the news, and every waking minute she has to fight off the temptation to just get drunk/high and lay around all day. And my friends think drugs are okay? I've seen heroin addicts at low points, I've seen a lot of mentally ill people. Using drugs as an escape from your shitty life, shitty parents, shitty world... It's so fucking DUMB. They aren't magical. The world won't get any FUCKING better until you work within its system for a while. And work really fucking hard to get yourself back to yourself. THE WORLD IS HOW IT IS AND NO DRUG WILL CHANGE THAT. IT WILL ONLY MAKE IT HARDER FOR YOU TO DEAL WITH THE REAL WORLD. YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO STAND BEING SOBER ANY MORE, AND YOU WILL HAVE NO MONEY, NO BRAIN CELLS, AND AFTER ENOUGH TIME, NO LIFE AT ALL. Self-medication is fucking WRONG. Slowly killing off your mind and body won't help things any, it will only make you into a more FUCKED UP, PIECE OF SHIT, USELESS PERSON in the future. You will actually BE those things your angry fucking abusive dumbass parentes like so much to call you. And yes, this applies to EVERYONE. ALL PARENTS SUCK. GET OVER IT. Your drug use will never have any positive result on the world. Unless you have kids. Then maybe, just maybe, if you're mature enough by then, you can say "Hey, look at me. See how fucked up I am? See me going through hell? Never go there." And maybe, JUST MAYBE, if your kids are smart enough to listen, and are stronger than your weak ass, they WON'T. God Willingly. look, I LOVE MY DRUGGIE FRIENDS. They are great people, very giving and sweet, and every last one has some issues, so the deep conversations are never boring. They stick together, and they help each other out. But a lot of the time their "help" is done in an utterly unhelpful way in the end. Then again, no one listens to me. So fuck it. In the unlikely event that this rant has affected you or your views in any way, please leave a comment saying so. Thank you. ~ Liz-Beth