Still emo after all these months

Listening to: Travis - Twenty
Feeling: depressed
DJ - I assume that's his real name, or at least initials, as it was his first diary here, and after it came bloodnight and darkjewel. I miss him. I honestly think he killed himself. Or else did the wise thing and committed internet suicide, something I've always wished I had the willpower to do. Or maybe he just stopped being a computer nerd altogether. In any case, he made all his diaries private and stopped writing entries. I only talked to him once or twice, but to me he was a close friend, a kindred spirit. Sometimes you just feel that connection, you know? Here's our first IM conversation (July 14, 2004): arkanestar (9:08:35 PM): 'allo streetmusician23 (9:08:39 PM): hi streetmusician23 (9:08:52 PM): who you? arkanestar (9:09:09 PM): bloodnight sound familiar? streetmusician23 (9:09:20 PM): ah, yes arkanestar (9:09:26 PM): good :-P streetmusician23 (9:09:30 PM): Yay, I remember now! arkanestar (9:09:36 PM): hehehe arkanestar (9:10:27 PM): so how are you? streetmusician23 (9:10:38 PM): wonderful streetmusician23 (9:10:42 PM): And sleepy as usual arkanestar (9:11:26 PM): lol streetmusician23 (9:11:51 PM): you? arkanestar (9:12:06 PM): good, though sleepy too streetmusician23 (9:12:34 PM): cool arkanestar (9:13:22 PM): by the way...i have another diary....darkjewel streetmusician23 (9:13:33 PM): yeah streetmusician23 (9:13:48 PM): I like it. Reminds me of your other one :-) arkanestar (9:14:00 PM): cool :-) streetmusician23 (9:14:38 PM): Music is awesome arkanestar (9:14:47 PM): yes it is streetmusician23 (9:16:27 PM): ... erm ... streetmusician23 (9:16:34 PM): What's your current obsession? arkanestar (9:16:42 PM): wow.... arkanestar (9:16:52 PM): there are a lot of ongoing obsessions... streetmusician23 (9:17:07 PM): ? arkanestar (9:17:38 PM): music, computers, knives and other sharp and pointy objects, girls :-P, and whatever else catches my fancy streetmusician23 (9:17:46 PM): cool arkanestar (9:17:51 PM): yours? streetmusician23 (9:17:53 PM): saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame streetmusician23 (9:17:57 PM): but more specifically streetmusician23 (9:18:01 PM): The Postal Service. streetmusician23 (9:18:10 PM): Their music is mesmerizing arkanestar (9:18:21 PM): i have not heard of them actually streetmusician23 (9:19:05 PM): "They will see us waving from such great heights come down now they'll say but everything looks perfect from far away come down now, but we'll stay" arkanestar (9:19:37 PM): i like streetmusician23 (9:19:45 PM): yeah streetmusician23 (9:19:50 PM): It's a love song, but still good. arkanestar (9:20:08 PM): are you implying that love songs are bad? :-P streetmusician23 (9:20:11 PM): most. streetmusician23 (9:20:20 PM): *crosses fingers and hisses at love*& arkanestar (9:20:24 PM): i have to agree somewhat arkanestar (9:20:26 PM): lol streetmusician23 (9:23:32 PM): Yeargh. streetmusician23 (9:23:36 PM): I like that word arkanestar (9:23:43 PM): hmmm, new word streetmusician23 (9:24:01 PM): *cracks neck* OOH, SEVEN! niiiiiiiiiiiice... arkanestar (9:24:16 PM): very good *applause* streetmusician23 (9:24:27 PM): I love doing that... arkanestar (9:24:35 PM): lol arkanestar (9:24:39 PM): it feels good streetmusician23 (9:27:27 PM): hell yeah streetmusician23 (9:27:37 PM): another club member! yaaaaaaaaaaay arkanestar (9:27:56 PM): hmmm? streetmusician23 (9:28:15 PM): You, too, like to crack your neck/other joints arkanestar (9:28:23 PM): ahh arkanestar (9:28:25 PM): yes streetmusician23 (9:35:41 PM): Gar... Conversation keeps dying. arkanestar (9:36:05 PM): hmmm arkanestar (9:37:42 PM): so what do you do for fun? streetmusician23 (9:38:09 PM): Listen to music, write poetry and music, hang out with crazy friends, say random shit. streetmusician23 (9:38:12 PM): You? arkanestar (9:39:02 PM): listen to music, play on the comp, write poetry (if you dare call it such), and read streetmusician23 (9:39:48 PM): I like your poetry streetmusician23 (9:40:00 PM): I'm a computer addict streetmusician23 (9:40:14 PM): Hurray, common ground. streetmusician23 (9:40:22 PM): Or Hooray, however you spell it... arkanestar (9:40:51 PM): yay! arkanestar (9:40:53 PM): another freak streetmusician23 (9:41:01 PM): yay arkanestar (9:41:32 PM): there's a third diary (scary) that has a lot of my older poems: http://diaries.suchisthis.com/dj arkanestar (10:01:50 PM): i'm heading out, tis late here streetmusician23 (10:02:29 PM): out where? arkanestar (10:02:45 PM): out to bed :-P streetmusician23 (10:02:52 PM): fun streetmusician23 (10:02:56 PM): Talk later? arkanestar (10:03:02 PM): of course streetmusician23 (10:03:04 PM): yaaaaaaaaaay streetmusician23 (10:03:06 PM): bye bye arkanestar (10:03:09 PM): hehehe arkanestar (10:03:13 PM): night beth streetmusician23 (10:03:25 PM): *yay* --------------------------------------------- Previous message was not received by arkanestar because of error (10:03:29 PM): User arkanestar is not available. ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ a few days later ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ arkanestar (1:27:17 AM): hi arkanestar (1:32:36 AM): ok, nevermind, juust wanted to say "hi" before i headed out since you're the only other person on arkanestar (1:32:42 AM): later streetmusician23 (1:37:45 AM): hi -------------------------------------------- Previous message was not received by arkanestar because of error (1:37:46 AM): User arkanestar is not available. ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ I never heard from him again.
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yeh yeh im better now. thanx no it wasnt drugs.ummm yeh better now
[Anonymous]
yeh yeh im better now. thanx no it wasnt drugs.ummm yeh better now
[Anonymous]