I think I need help. What the hell is wrong with me. I've never had such terrible thoughts in my head. In the past three days I've wished that my best friend would get hit by a car ... and that a girl I know would be pregnant *as is assumed* and then die while in labor. I'm pretty much crying right now I just need to get away. I want to run away from everything and everyone. Okay, not everyone, theres probably 3 people I would want to keep around me. And whoever reads this...don't get angry at me because I'm acting like I have a horrible life. It's just...so much has been dumped on my shoulders and stuck in my mind in the past three days...and honestly...I don't know what the hell to think anymore. I need to get away. I've never wanted somebody near me as bad as I do right now. I need you now more than ever. I need somebody to tell me everything will be okay. And no...if you are reading this and think you know everything that is going on in my life right now...then honestly...you really have no fucking clue.