Things really bother me. Like...my friends will do something really stupid and it's not even that bad I guess, but it just really gets to me. And then I get into this terrible state of mind and it's really bad.
You know what, theres a difference from being depressed and having depression, for the record. Being depressed is just a slowed down/sad state of mind at the current time.
Depression is when things don't even have to be wrong for you to think that they are bad. It's a mental problem. It's not something that you can really help. No matter how fucking positive you seem to be, it just doesn't work anymore. Antidepressant pills only make you suicidal too, so theres no use in taking them, ya know?
I wanted my ceiling light to fall on me earlier and slice my neck. I've cut myself on it before...it's really sharp.
People bother me so much. Because of them I went and cut snowflakes to ease my mind. I'm really selfish, and stupid.
I don't give a fuck right now, I guess.