I hope to god he doesn't say it.
those three words
What the hell is wrong with me.
I drive myself insane.
I knew I shouldn't've told Brittany anything about it. She doesn't make things any easier.
gah. I'm just kinda freaked out. I do have feelings for him but they just aren't nearly as strong as his are for me.
I swear I'm not going to say those words if he says them to me. I won't say them until I mean it.
I've only said it and not meant it to two people ever. And I really do regret that. But wth, they didn't mean it when they said it to me either, and I'm not even a second thought in their minds, so it shouldn't matter.
I just need to spend more time with him one on one. That's it. Because I remember when we were waiting for his parents to come pick him up and Maureen was being eversosweet and waiting int he parking lot, we were all cuddled together and he gave me his jacket even though he was freezing, and I had my head on his shoulder, and we could've looked up at those stars forever.
And he gives really good hugs. And his kisses don't even feel funny anymore! hah. Why do I sound like I'm trying to convince myself that I do like him.
I do though...I swear.
Good night.
don't worryy, sir.
i dive myself insane, too.
♥verena
wow, that's awesome that we have the same plates.
hehe, that's reaallyyy random, too.
i got really bored one dayy so i made a smileyy face with barbeque sauce on a plate and took a picture.
♥♥verena
miriah