God it makes me mad when people are all like 'OMG I love that new song 'This Is The New Hit' by Marilyn Manson!!' FUCKING WHORES THATS NOT WHAT ITS CALLED. GOD DAMMIT. If you knew anything, you would know that it is edited for radio and whatnot, and if you even liked the band, you would know the god damn title. Damien came over for about an hour earlier, which was purretty cool. I had a good time. My little brother is so fond of him, it's absolutely adorable. They played baseball in the street, heh. It's so great being around him, he just makes me forget about all the negative things that so often enter my mind. I absolutely love it. THENNNN I came back inside, and was up in my room listening to music, and for some reason my mind wandered back to this previous school year...like when Eric and everybody fucking harassed me. I won't even go into details...but nobody has ever made me feel so insecure and helpless. After thinking about that...I just got into a terrible state of mind, and I didn't have a way to get ahold of anybody...and I pretty much went a little bit crazy, to say the very least. I feel really stupid now. I'm a very stupid person at some times. Justine really pissed me off earlier. I called her and Kylee was at her house and picked up the phone. and i was like 'wth why is SHE answering your phone' blah blah blah then justine was like 'yeah i love you too bff kylee. yeah, youre my bff. I KNOW YOURE MY BEST FRIEND FOREVER!!' and so i was like. I fucking hate kylee. I'm going to gouge out her eyeballs in her sleep, and then I'm going to shove them down your throat. LMFAO. I make myself laugh sometimes at my insanity.