Why does this song always begin to play when I'm in a shitty mood? ::shrugs:: I love the color gray. It's so pretty. It's rather cold in here. And go figure, my younger brother just turned on the fan. :sighs: Hmmm. well I have chinese food for dinner. Maybe that'll ease my mood. I'll write more later. Chinese food sucked. AND we had jojos for dinner, but those weren't even that good. Why do all the good things seem to suck right now? :shrugs: ::sings:: What's the worst that I could sayyy, things are better if I stay. So long and good night, so long and goo-ood night. I love that song, and that band. I especially love watching Mikey make love to his guitar. That's a really big turn on...hehe. I just took an iq test and got a 113, and my really dumb brother got a 120. God I feel dumb. Oh well. I guess I'm just a...a dumb dumb dumb dumb girl. That's what I am.. I like that song. I bet y'all don't know it. It was popular probably two years ago. Hmm. Have you ever heard the song Just A Little Girl by Amy Studt? I really enjoy that song too. When I go to visit Justine one of these days, I want to stay out all night. Me and her can both pack bags, and take whatever money we got..and just try to find something to do with ourselves for that one night. Hmm, two teenage girls in the heart of Portland, Oregon. Let's hope we don't get raped. Or shanked. Actually, I don't care anymore. For some reason earlier when I was in my room, the thought occured to me to jump out of a window. Not to kill myself. Just to harm myself. And my brain wasn't even bothered. For some reason I felt as if it was a good idea. I scare myself. I've fallen asleep with things tied tightly around my neck, purposely. Just to see if I'd hurt myself. ...I have problems, I'm coming to realize. That's not something a normal person does, is it? -Michelle.