miles and miles of perfect skin I swear I do, I fit right in. Good song. So true. I have that scribbled in my journal. hahahaha. Today has been an upsie-downsie kind of day. I've been really happy, and then I've been really pissed. Like when this stupid faggot on myspace sent me a message saying the following: hey u got really big boobs would u mind showing me them just take a pic and send it to me on myspace and i want to see u ina thong also k i love u sex thing bye I was just like. Do I even know who THE FUCK you are. then he says...idk but i really like how u look what size r u tho but will u show me ur tits HAHAHAH I GOT SO PISSED. So I then wrote him this pleasant message: No FUCKING way in hell kid. You are such an ass. You must really get all the girls when you talk to 'em like that, huh? Fuck no. Nobody likes to be depreciated like that. Learn how to have some fucking respect before you talk to a girl. lmfao. Depreciated. What a big word. Needless to say, he didn't write me back. This girl Connie lifted my mood a bit today, she told me *out of the blue* that I should consider modelling. Too bad I laughed at her. I would never be able to be a model. I'm not tall enough/thin enough/pretty enough/anything enough. hahaaha it sucks being a girl. Me and Brittany were walking past Blaise today when we were walking home, and I was just like 'OMG WHAT?! YOU WANT TO GIVE BLAISE A LAPDANCE?!' I don't think she's ever hit me so hard. hahah. Oh yeah, and I told some guy that she thought he was hot, even though she did she totally denied it. Oh you know what? The new White Strips cd SUCKS. what a waste of 15 dollars. Yes, I actually PAID for this CD. :) I would've been much better off with that Manson CD. ::sigh:: oh well. idk why I'm making an entry. I just like to write. All of my thoughts from inside my head. Nothing relatively interesting though, I'm afraid. I have a feeling that things are going to suck when school starts. I have a very strong feeling of that. I have so many silly thoughts running through my head. 'what if brittany finds a new best friend?' 'what if all the girls in my classes hate me' 'what if i never get to see any of my old friends?' What a silly little girl. I feel like crying right now? That's what my eyes are telling me, I guess. I think I wanna go lay in the dark for awhile. It's so calming. Lonely, yet calming. It lets me just think of...whatever. You know what. I'm pathetic. I fear being ridiculed. I fear being shunned and out cast by people, so I am constantly shoving them out of my life. If I have nobody around then I have nobody to fear, but things just don't work out that way. I just realized that about myself. Weird. Why do I fear people so much... POEM. AHH. I will go and rewrite a poem. I like a few of the lines, but it really sucks, so I'll redo that. Woule ye like me to post it? I don't care if you want me to or not, I'll post it anyways. Love ya Damien -Michelle