UGH. Today sucked. Go figure. I was going to see if my dad would take me to get my hair dye since I made honor roll [but then they got all fkn pissy with us] He woke me up from a nap and yelled at me to clean my room and then we all had a big 'family meeting' which consisted of them yelling at bitching at all of us because we're lazy asses. But whatever. I hate confrontation and even though it wasn't that big of a deal I couldnt look them in the eyes without wanting to cry. So then I go upstairs and my dad asked me if something was wrong b/c earlier I was outside in the dark by myself, but I told him no. Then I came upstairs and laid in my bed listening to music and I just started crying. I'm not sure why...I was just thinking about lots of things, I guess. Valentines Day, friends [that I don't have], and how I'd kill to just be a normal girl without worrying about everything so much. Like wth does it mean if I always think someone is gonna kill me. Like I randomly thought the other day that someone was going to come up behind me and thrust a knife into my back and then drag it down my flesh once it was inside. ;lkajdf ugh. Weird detailed shit like that ALWAYS pops into my head. but whatever, ya know. Nobody cares. I surely don't so you shouldn't either. I'm lying. I gtg my brother's on. Good night