I'm so fucking tired of people.
And loving people. And everything.
I want to cut my heart out. I want to have no emotions.
Maybe I should get on antidepressants. Those just make you feel nothingness. Plus they can make you lose weight too. Double bonus there.
I hate it when people brag or even talk about cutting themselves but I'm feeling selfish right now.
Last night I cut myself five times. Straight across the vein. They wouldn't stop bleeding. So I covered them with that cloth. And then this morning it was stuck to my skin, that was gross. These cuts seem deeper than before. And I don't even know why, but I looked at my wrist in class today and it was bleeding...a lot.
Call me selfish. Call me stupid. I don't care.
Maybe I'll do it tonight.
Out of jealousy. Out of anger.
Out of sadness...
Who gives a shit.