Its been so long since I have written here, and to tell the truth I am ashamed of some of the things that I wrote. These diaries have been used as a means of starting and continuing the drama. But I discovered that the easiest way to escape the drama is just not to be around those that cause you trouble. And because of this I request that David you don't come over to my house anymore. There is nothing but pain and strife between the two of us, and niether of us needs to be reminded of the conflict. On a happier note, I have found love. Many of you know how much I screwed up my relationship with Stephen, who made it painfully clear that he no longer has an interest in me. But I have decieded that all I have done was for the best. Its amazing how the Goddess can led you on a path to such happiness, and she has for me. I am truly happy for the first time in years, and I am starting to write again. Stephen I realized that we were never suppose to be together, we were killing each other. It was because of that, that I stopped writing, I couln't find the inspiration when I was in such a wrong place. I will always love you, but I could never be happy....and Luke can give me what I need....a love so much stronger than I have ever known before. Well thats all I have to say for right now.