Do you ever feel that the world is shaky? That at any moment everything that you have so carefully built is going to crash. I think that we use friends to stablize ourselves they create this bridge that keeps us all away from the abyss. So many people never see the abyss because they are always held up. Right now I feel that there is no one to hold me, that there is nothing below me and I am sure that if I look down i will fall. And so I try not to look but its hard to do something when you know you shouldn't. Like when you need to sneeze and the more you try not to the more you need to. I'm listening to music in an attempt to ground myself, and when I say I am listening to music I mean I am drowning myself in it. Mythril is just an IM away or so it would seem except no matter what I try he won't actally talk to me, he gives me short answers and then silence...nothing but silence. I built all my hopes on him and this promise that everythign would get easier...easier...the biggest lie anyone has ever told me. This rope of hope and promises won't hold me anylonger...I need something concreate...somethign more than promises of hope...without a life raft I am going to drown in my own tears...is it sucide if you drown in your own tears?notice the void i am just floating in
Do you ever feel that the world is shaky? That at any moment everything that you have so carefully built is going to crash. I think that we use friends to stablize ourselves they create this bridge that keeps us all away from the abyss. So many people never see the abyss because they are always held up. Right now I feel that there is no one to hold me, that there is nothing below me and I am sure that if I look down i will fall. And so I try not to look but its hard to do something when you know you shouldn't. Like when you need to sneeze and the more you try not to the more you need to. I'm listening to music in an attempt to ground myself, and when I say I am listening to music I mean I am drowning myself in it. Mythril is just an IM away or so it would seem except no matter what I try he won't actally talk to me, he gives me short answers and then silence...nothing but silence. I built all my hopes on him and this promise that everythign would get easier...easier...the biggest lie anyone has ever told me. This rope of hope and promises won't hold me anylonger...I need something concreate...somethign more than promises of hope...without a life raft I am going to drown in my own tears...is it sucide if you drown in your own tears?
Do you ever feel that the world is shaky? That at any moment everything that you have so carefully built is going to crash. I think that we use friends to stablize ourselves they create this bridge that keeps us all away from the abyss. So many people never see the abyss because they are always held up. Right now I feel that there is no one to hold me, that there is nothing below me and I am sure that if I look down i will fall. And so I try not to look but its hard to do something when you know you shouldn't. Like when you need to sneeze and the more you try not to the more you need to. I'm listening to music in an attempt to ground myself, and when I say I am listening to music I mean I am drowning myself in it. Mythril is just an IM away or so it would seem except no matter what I try he won't actally talk to me, he gives me short answers and then silence...nothing but silence. I built all my hopes on him and this promise that everythign would get easier...easier...the biggest lie anyone has ever told me. This rope of hope and promises won't hold me anylonger...I need something concreate...somethign more than promises of hope...without a life raft I am going to drown in my own tears...is it sucide if you drown in your own tears?
MeowI'llbyyourfriend.