I put this picture up, not because its what I wish, but because I actually believe that I have it in my reach. I understand his reservations, he's not like me, I fall fast, and I fall hard. And I have done both for Silver. Just when I gave up hope he reappears. Sweeter and better than I remember. I feel bad for not having more faith in him. In three weeks I have to leave for school, and its tearing me up, because I don't want to leave him. But he's right, this is for the best. I need to get through school. I need to do this for myself. And Malachi was right, I need to start living for myself. I have taken care of everyone else for long enough. I need to grab happiness and hold it. It is going to be hard being away from him for the semester, but I think that in the end its going to work out. And hopefully he'll be able to come down and see me, atleast for Mardi Gras and I will be back for Thanksgiving, and Christmas and Spring break. Its only a couple of months apart at a time. Its just that right now, our relationship is so fragile. I have so much hope, if only I can learn to let go of Mythril. Do I want to let go of Mythril, yes I do. I want to be happy, and I can't trust him anymore. He gave me a sucker, and I think that he did it for his own amusemnt, but thats okay. Its strawberry-kiwi. Probably makes me taste like kiwi, and I kind of like the idea of tasting sweet, but that is so off topic. Sorry right now I am so happy and amazed by how great tongit was that, I am rambling. Tonight I told him that I loved him, and he didn't run away. Well goodnight everyone.